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26: pets

now this question is the deal-breaker, i've even skipped number twenty-five because this question is so intense. (i've also skipped number twenty-five not only to see if you are paying attention, but also because i couldn't think of anything to say for it, since it was so intense.) we'll break them into categories.

small pets:
are easy to deal with. the most difficult thing about these though, is that i think i would forget to feed them, because they're not animals that will tell their owner if they need something. like fish, or hamsters, or a hedgehog even. plus, their cages/tanks are annoying to clean. although their cute-factor is definitely high on the charts and these kinds of animals would be most appealing, i get worried.

cats:
i'm allergic to. but adrienne loves them. i'm not too fond of them. she seems to think they can be trained to be nice... but she forgets that when she's not around, no matter how nice it is, i'm going to kick it. it's like i'm built that way, i can't help it. i love to kick cats. i couldn't clean up after them either too, cuz i get really nauseated.

dogs:
are great as long as they don't shed, or don't shed much. dogs are a loyal companion, and i love the idea of dogs... however, the practice is always difficult. i couldn't go on vacation and leave a dog at home unattended the same way i could potentially leave a cat. they're a bit higher maintenance, and they need to be walked every day. but i think overall, a dog wins out over the other two, at least in my mind. although, i'm predicting we'll end up with a cat.

24: clothes

"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?"
Matthew 6:28-30

i'm learning to live more into this, but it's really difficult. i like having clothes that are comfortable, fit well, and look good. i also would like to stop purchasing things from companies who don't care very much about the poor. this is very difficult to do, sometimes that i think will be a lifelong process.

at the current point in time, and for a few years now, my favorite place to buy clothes has been gap. their mediums fit me well, and they look good. they're probably my most trusted staple. recently i've been buying a few things here and there at urban outfitters. i love the bdg thermals they carry. they're so soft, and the fabric is sweet because i can wear it for days without it starting to smell. when i dry them, i dry them flat so they don't shrink. i do enjoy clothes.

23: twos

i'm not double jointed. i used to think i was, but that was only because i was able to turn both my arms all the way around - 360 degrees. it was awesome, i couldn't have asked for more 5th-grade-fame than that.

but let's talk about music straight out of the turn of the century for a bit, since i feel like sometimes my brain is double jointed and able to think about several things at once. train: drops of jupiter. it's beautiful. while their albums are somewhat passable, meaning i skip most of the songs to get to one or two that i like, that song is incredibly powerful. it's no wonder it won all the awards it did. now when i hear some sappy love songs on the radio, my mind always reverts back to drops of jupiter, and how nothing really quite measures up in my mind to the breadth and feeling of that song.

some say that we will listen to music later in life that we grew up on. i think i'm feeling this about that song to a certain extent. it filled in such an odd gap in my life: middle school. that'll probably be a later topic, so it can wait.

22: crush

it's a secret.  :P

21: gift

i can't recall the first gift i ever received. i do remember a few from my childhood, mostly because i still have them now. one is a stuffed horse named jumper that i loved to desecration, where it still remains. another is a grey bunny whom i lost several times, but always managed to show up again a few months later at someone else's house. there was a windup micky mouse toy as well... i think this was probably the earliest. it had wheels and would move its hands back and forth as it traveled across the floor. i don't understand how anyone could be intrigued by this.

i played with k'nex a lot growing up. i think my kids will too. i also played with wooden building blocks. in kindergarten we built a tower out of blocks as high as we could. it probably wasn't as high as i remember it to be, because i was short. it doesn't seem so fantastic now. but back to my original infatuation: k'nex. they're awesome. i could build anything from racing cars to ferris wheels; i did. i still have them in fact, and fight off the temptation to play with them every time i go home. they're a pain to clean up.

20: goldfish

it's the snack that smiles back. unless it's alive, then it's just gross. no, i have not eaten a goldfish and i likely never will.

19: breakfast

if i don't want to cook anything in the morning, i will usually go for a bagel with cream cheese. this is the trend for most mornings. my favorite kind of bagel is a salt bagel. if you've never heard of these, i'm not surprised, they had them in rhode island for a little bit, but they're primarily a new york thing. it's basically a bagel with big chunks of salt on it. it's akin to a soft pretzel. those with cream cheese make my day.

if i can cook breakfast, i love to make pancakes, or cinnamon roll french toast. i love a sugary breakfast, high in carbohydrates. i especially enjoy when my breakfast includes fruit. i should go to stop and shop more to buy some for the mornings, if i actually thought about eating it, i probably would.

18: hungry

if i could eat anything at this very moment, i would probably have chips and some sort of dip, like salsa or hummus. they're my favorite snack, i don't go many days without indulging.

17: pizza

the one pizza topping that i find it hard to do without is cheese. rhode island is infamous for those pizza slices without cheese, that just have sauce. this is highway robbery, just bread and sauce. come on rhode island, what's your problem?

16: energy

the taste of caffeinated beverages has improved over time, or at least my sense of taste has gotten worse. i've never been able to understand when people say something is "an acquired taste," especially when things taste terrible. if you acquire a taste for something terrible, then your sense of taste has gotten worse, not better. anywho, enough of my rant.

in my mind there are two types of caffeinated drinks, primarily for the dispersion of quick energy for the masses. hot and cold.

i will address hot drinks first. coffee and tea. obviously, there are several variations on each, and those will be included. while the choice is difficult, and the other usually wins out in an actual lifestyle decision, the logical decision for me is tea. it is far more appealing than coffee conceptually. in the end of the day though, when i put my money where my mouth is, i will choose coffee. it's more accessible, and the caffeine volume is higher if that's really what i'm craving.

with cold drinks, it's a competition between energy drinks, coffee and tea. i would still choose coffee as my iced drink for caffeine dosing, but tea as my drink for taste. it's beautiful, and it actually quenches thirst.

let me talk about my tolerance for energy drinks: they make my kidneys hurt. i have no idea why.

15: proposal

who? what? when? why? where? how? big questions concerning such an event. i hope they'll remain as secret as possible, without the surprise, the event could be ruined.

*edit december 24, 2008*
obviously, this post had to be discrete at the time i posted it, but now it no longer has to be. :) what a wonderful time. anywho, we were in san francisco, on the night of december 22nd. we were on the 22nd floor of our hotel (how fun) looking over san francisco. if i had a picture i'd show you.

i had been ring shopping about a month beforehand, and had finally bought adrienne's ring a few weeks before we had left. i had some ideas for a plan on how i was intending to propose, but i knew that once i had the ring in my hand, that would be it. i have a hard time waiting for anything. especially something this exciting.

we got into san francisco, checked into the hotel with my parents, and went out to a cafe to grab our first meal together. on the way there, my mom handed me "some money," but actually handed me the ring to put into my pocket.

after dinner, we went back to the hotel, and after talking for a bit i turned to adrienne and said, "i love you." and she said, "i love you too." then i proceeded to get down on one knee, and with her hand in mine, i pulled the ring out of my pocket and asked her to marry me.

"is this a joke?!"

was her response, to which i replied, "no, i'm serious."

and she said yes.

so far it's been a great time of celebration and a lot of fun. we're back to rhode island on january first. i'm excited to spend time with friends from home. :)

14: facets

hair and eye color are interesting things. eye color is something i don't notice unless i intentionally think about it when looking at a person to remember it. eye color to me for the opposite sex doesn't matter much. they're eyes, and when i get to know the person well enough, looking into them means the world to me.

with hair color, i could probably say the same thing. i do have my preference for hair color - dark - but some people look great with the color hair they have, and it would be silly to change it.

13: scent

i love how adrienne smells. oftentimes i don't even have to look up to know when she walks in a room. we had a journal the summer before last that i gave her as a birthday present to mail back and forth since we were long distance with no other form of communication. she sprayed it with her perfume and i'll never forget what it smells like.

12: tears

the last time i cried - or at least had tears in my eyes - was when my grandfather was visiting with my grandmother on thanksgiving. we had prayed, and mike, my stepdad, thought it would be good if we all said went around and said what we're thankful for, which is cliche, it does have it's beauty. my grandfather started telling us what he was thankful for, and tears were welling up in his eyes, it didn't take long for mine to do the same. i don't even remember what he said, but there's something powerful about tears.

11: darkness

the first word i ever said was "light." since then, i've probably been afraid of the dark, but only when there are windows. there's something odd about the blackness of a window when the room inside is lit. there could be something creeping outside and you'd never know it.

i used to have this dream when i was younger, i still conjure up the memories of it every now and again. it's an emaciated man with long grey hair and sunken eyes. he's not doing anything but staring.

i don't like to be outside in complete darkness either. maybe i'm just afraid of the outdoors...

10: tendencies

i have issues with liquids, think of the girl in the movie "signs" if you need an example. i don't drink the bottom of anything. i don't pour the bottom of anything into anything else for consumption. the bottom is okay to pour out if it's being disposed of. if you need more clarification - it's not an issue with backwash - it's an issue with the bottom. it doesn't even matter if no one has consumed any of it.

i become frustrated when people's tags stick out, so i try to buy clothing without tags. i can usually succeed.

rooms full of people make me anxious, but this helps with speaking out in class and participating, since the anxious energy is translated into class participation.

i bite my fingers. no, not my nails, i can't because i have sensitive teeth. but i bite my fingers. yes... i rip the skin off until they bleed, and i won't stop until i'm "finished." don't ask me what that means, i can't explain it.

i get nauseated when people talk about blood or surgeries or the like. my imagination is too vivid and it conjures up mental images that i have trouble dealing with. sometimes i come close to fainting when i bite my fingers too much, especially if it's in the dark and i can feel the blood but i can't see it.

i suffer from extreme motion sickness in most moving vehicles. the larger they are, the worse they are. yes, elevators too.

9: height

i hover somewhere around six feet, but i'm not at six feet. if someone asks me, i'll usually say, "about six."

8: treasures

my most prized possessions are things that i use the most frequently. i'm obviously not talking about my toothbrush, soap, or deodorant... i'm talking about my car, my computer, my ipod, and my books.

first off, i'll talk about the car. it gets me where i need to go. it's not too fast, it's not too slow, the acceleration is nice, and i love how it drives. i wouldn't trade it for any other car. not even a "better" one. i think it's great, and it's what i've been driving almost the whole time i've had my license.

my computer is second. of course, this list is in no real order, i couldn't label these things as more important than the others, although, some will and do have their preference in this post, but it only can cover a moment in time, it can't describe how my whole life is. i really enjoy using my mac. it's a great experience, and i can do all the things i need to do, without the hassle of anything that i don't. i've had some problems with it, but the weird thing is that my loyalty has never strayed. i've had problems with pcs too... but the problems with this were way more user friendly. (and so was customer service)

the ipod touch is incredible. i still can't get over all the crazy ways i can use it. i have an 80 gig ipod video too, but it's been sitting in my room since i got the touch. at first i thought 8 gigs wasn't going to be enough.. in fact, it isn't. it's just right... i can put the music on it that i listen to, and the applications on it that i'll use. i don't have to worry about adding anything else. plus, it's super easy, and it has wifi, which is a perk.

books books books. i love to read. the internet is great too, because it's full of books... but there's nothing like sitting in a comfy chair with some tea and a good book... if only i could get one of those straw hats for my tea though, i hate having to hold something while also holding a book, it slightly ruins the experience... only slightly though.

7: nostalgia

there aren't many things in the word that i miss more than certain discontinued food items. the first one my list is a beautiful cookie by the keebler elf people. the second is ecto cooler.



6: desire

to answer the question: "what do i want most right now?" i think it would be sufficient enough, at least recently, to say, "sleep." it would be completely truthful. i think i'm going to go get that now.

5: born

there is a lot of talk about those crazy evangelical "born-agains." while i don't deny to any extent that this happens, i think the language got taken over and applied to a group of people who actually seemed revolutionarily crazy rather than revolutionarily loving. (i'm referring to evangelical christianity in the 70s if you're wondering. i'm also referencing an essay by mark lilla, you're not wondering that.)

anyways, i was born in may on the west coast a few decades ago. i can't tell you when my "second birth" was... but it probably started long before i can remember and came to a peak of me actually realizing that i am a way different person than i would have been otherwise last summer. it's crazy to think of where i might be naturally, but where i am now that i'm viewing the gospel of jesus christ as truth and allowing to change me.

the beautiful thing about this process is that it didn't just happen in one place at one time. it's not an affirmation or a mere confession, but rather something transformative that happens every instant of every day... an opportunity to live into the salvation that Jesus offered through his death on the cross. it's huge. i'm glad for his grace... i'm still pretty messed up, i'm glad God is still in the business of renewal.

*edit january 4, 2009*
i recently learned that the number one song on my birthday was george michael's "one more try"

4: music

i started playing drums junior year of high school because i had always wanted to. i love to play drums, it's a lot of fun... but i'm finding more and more that playing with the correct people makes it even more fun.

i love tinkering around with new instruments. i secretly wish that i had lots of money, just so i could buy tons of instruments and play them all the time. maybe one day i'll be able to do that... i doubt it though.

currently i've been playing a lot more guitar than anything else. i really enjoy it, but i seriously need to get better with it. i'm progressing though. i picked it up about a year ago, and i haven't put it down much since. i play guitar way more than i play drums. i think i enjoy it more because of its portability, but i think if i always had someone to play along with on drums, i'd like playing drums more.

i bought a mandolin recently as well. i don't play it too much, but it's good as a random instrument to throw in when a song doesn't need drums. it's acoustic electric, with a humbucker pickup. it's got a pretty sweet sound. i usually run it through a compression sustainer pedal. i wish i had a few reverb petals to run it through as well, that'd be sick.

i also listen to tons of music... mostly in my car. i realized how oversaturated my life was becoming with it and i decided to cut back a little bit. although, when i get a new cd, i listen to it ad nauseam... until i'm sick of it, and so is everyone else around me.

recently i've been getting into electronic music, and i'd love to mess around with some midi processors and synth. maybe learn to play some keys. we'll see where the future leads. i need to learn how to read music first though, i think.

3: sleep

i might snore when i sleep. i think sometimes i do, but i typically sleep on my stomach, and i think they say that when people sleep on their stomach they don't snore. however, i have woken myself up while starting to snore when falling asleep sitting up. weird, i know.

i don't think i grind my teeth. that's never been a problem for me. the dentist has never said anything about me potentially grinding.

i do sometimes talk in my sleep. i know this because i sometimes sleepwalk. i've woken up a couple times in the hall of my dormitory talking to a resident, wondering how i got there. i'm pretty sure i slept through a whole day of classes that i went to as well, because i don't remember having gone to any of those classes.

2: walls

i have mirrors on the wall in my room. i would have more things, but according to the lease on our house currently, joe and i aren't allowed to take anything down or put anything else up. there's a mirror on the wall that my bed is on, and there's a big one right at my desk. sometimes i sit at my desk while i'm on my computer and pretend there's someone else in the room. and i make faces. it's like an imaginary friend i can see.

ideally, i'd love to have canvas squares of different sizes on the wall, painted in bold colors, distressed and kind of grungy. i think it'd be sweet. i like a lot of geometric modern art shapes... traditional art pieces or photographs really don't wow me, but i'd me amenable to having them on my walls as long as their tasteful and go with the decor of the rest of the house. also, i love pop art.

1: scars

i have a scar on my forehead. it's sweet. have i ever thought i was harry potter? no. my dog dragged me into the door frame of our house when i was 3 or 4. blood everywhere. my dad left a bloody note for my mom saying we were at the hospital. hilarious.

i have another scar on my elbow. it's really ugly looking. i got it when the van i was in got hit by an eighteen wheeler. both my head and arm went through the window. blood was everywhere. it was the day before my mom's birthday when she got a call from the hospital saying i had been in accident. since i was driving back from having flown a plane, she assumed the worst. so after a few minutes on the phone, frantically trying to figure out what had happened, the woman at the hospital told her it was a car accident, and while i was injured, i was fine. great communication skills.

i have a scar on my chin where i can't grow hair. it's not visible as a scar, but it is a patch where no hair grows. i think i fell as a child. it's frustrating.